poured water in the pack an hour ago

Hi to everyone---have been searching this site for some time now and know that I did it today for a reason. Have smoked for 20 years---bday is in oct and will enter my 40th year on the planet. I'm no math wizz but that is half my life anyway you look at it. I have quit before for short periods of time but I never have had any help and never really read anything on the topic of quitting until now. Considering that it is only an hour since my last cig,smoking cessation, I almost don't feel like I have a right to be here but then again there really is no time like the present and I may as well ask for the support from the get. I love the stuff I have read because I can relate to so so much of it---Standing outside in subzero temps,Herbal cigarettes, putting my 6 year old in the position of telling me to quit or else I will get a disease----spending more time than I care to think about away from my infant daughter because I thought it was ok if I smoked only on a differant level of the house than the one she was on. Sorry to ramble--just feeling very emotional because quitting has weighed heavy on my soul for so long and it is scary----just not as scary as not quitting (there is that old thing about what you know even if it is bad)and all that that entails. Anyway--hope someone out there has the time for this novella and wish me strength.