My subconscious at 2 months

Just wanted to say hi to everyone and tell them that although I havent been a very happy person lately I am still smoke free. I am trying very hard though. Newerbies if you are falling into a sad or stressy situation please keep on reminding yourself that the relief you have felt from smoking was only the relief coming from feeding the addiction. Once the chemical addiciton is gone smoking will not relieve anything. It's been a big lie! I am leaving this Sunday, soon I will start packing for the long journey back 'home' to Malaysia...The next 12 months will be challanging. I havent had the 'real' life experience without smokes before. So cross fingers everyone...I am almost certain I will not pick up that smoke it's just that I don'want to feel 'down' or feel like 'I am missing something' or nonstop use will power to stop myself from smoking any longer. My subconcious is really strong and constantly using the willpower is so tiring sometimes. I want this weight off my shoulders and never want to feel like it any longer. Maybe I am feeling this way because I am only quit for 2 months..I am really hoping by time this will dissapear..The psychological battle of mine..I really didnt think its going to last this long...Love to allSonata