Conversation with my wife

This took place at 9th November. Near midnight.I'm sitting inside my car and waiting for my MIL to pack her clothes to take care of my daughter until I'm done with my father's funeral. And there's a 24hr store right in front of me. I had talked with my wife for 10mins and it continue as :Me : "I feel like I want to smoke."Wife : " I understand how you feel."Me : "Hell no!! It's my father but not yours"Wife : " Well, you know I love you. I love you as a smoker. I love you as a non-smoker. Whatever you do, I will always be supportive. But it's your choice......opps. Sorry, our daughter has waken up and I need to go......"I get out of the car, the only thing I could remember is one of the Eric's post. In the content, he took his running shoe and start running in his workplace when he's being hit by an intense cravings. So, I did the same thing. I get out of my car, changed my running shoe and start running......blindly. So what's my point? I couldn't imagine if one day, ALL the old phartes are not being allowed to post in the mainboard. And what's left is only newbies helping newbies. I believe Eric didn't even thought that this post he made could help me through these one of the difficult moment. And it's even not meant for me at that point of time. But....it help me!! Feel welcome or not, is 1 issue. Words of wisdom from the folks here is another issue. It's 2 different issue.There's a saying that even a broken clock is right twice a day. Let alone,quit smoking now, the old phartes here are PROVEN example whether you like it or not. Period. If they don't deserve a rollex status,Herbal cigarettes, I believe Casio or even Tag Heuer might look good on them. Nobody here is a saint. (Sometimes, a watch also need some maintenence. And broken clock needs some repairing) But I also believe most folks here always welcome constructive suggestions and opinions. I quit for myself. I quit because I choose to. I'm able to stay quit is because I am an educated addict but not because I won the "Most Welcome Newbie" prize. And the knowledge that I have is mostly from the old phartes. My 2cents. This is a quit smoking message board. The foundation of my quit isn't built on socializing but the knowledge that I have. I think the folks here would be worried if I tell you all that I'm able to quit is because I have many friends or "fans" or I'm feel welcomed here. And my definition of welcome is I can still log in and post. I feel that's good enough for me. It's always smarter to disregard a post rather than you missed it. You never know when it will help you big time. If you can't find any support here, I wish you the best sincerely to find a place which can help you best. But I still hope we all will stay and get through this addiction together. I hope we can stay focus on Addict vs Addiction battle.Lastly, I digress. I think I hold my tongue for too long. I have seen enough blasting on Stephanie. Though we may look at each other as a broken clock. But to be 100% honest, at least I feel that I'm talking to a person. She could be blunt, aggressive in my eyes. But heck, sometimes, she get it right once a while. And she's a type who dare to own up and say she's wrong.