I'm back....an all new ME!!!!

I got so upset with the drama of the board lately that I left. I felt it had a negative impact on me, and I didn't feel it was doing me any good. But as the subject line reads.....I'm an all new ME!Why am I ALL NEW? Hmmmmm.....Maybe it was the visit from my dr's office for a routine visit, and in the middle of having my breast examined, the doctor asks if there is a history of breast cancer in my family. Thinking "yes, there is" my mind is flooded with thoughts of the worst. Thoughts of my tearful grandmother as she tells me she has breast cancer. My thoughts turn to fear when the doctor tells me that he would like to run a "few more tests" and possibly schedule me for a biopsy. OH MY GOD! .......'tis my only thought. A million ill thoughts are racing through my mind. I can't leave now. I have kids, a husband, a life. With all of that,stop smoking, keeping the quit should be easy, right? NOT FOR ME!My stats below will explain my plight. Don't flame, don't judge. We are all different people, and I am ME.....i'm not like you!I stepped back to realize what life is all about. Life is about ME. Life is about MY FAMILY! Life is about what I am PASSIONATE about. I want to have the final say in MY LIFE!Even thought I am still in those magical detox days, I still feel AMAZING. I am taking back control of my life, no matter how long or short it is!Thank you for taking the time to read this. When you are done,quit smoking, close your eyes and join my hand in your mind. Be with ME and stand by ME as I TAKE MY LIFE BACK!I have been quit for 2 Days, 14 hours, 15 minutes and 14 seconds (2 days). I have saved $22.54 by not smoking 59 cigarettes. I have saved 4 hours and 55 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 2/19/07 6:00 AM