Day One! OMG!

As most of you know I was playing head games with myself. Making an almost impossible quit date far offf in future and just saying how much I loved the cigs and didnt want to quit. But as I read along this site. Got the feeedback i did, plus private messages which by the way are wonderful to recieve!!!!So I decided to make today day one! I have my arsenal, patches, cough drops, micro popcorn,stop smoking, tons of ice cold water, and my favorite, my cut up straw, cut to the length of a cig. i pretend smoke it all day and it is so funny I catch myself constantly flicking it as if it were a real cig!I am bounceing back and forth with my emotions. Excited to have stopped, pissed of that I stopped,quit smoking, back and forth.I just know I HAVE to do this for myself to survive.I am glad I found all of you!